I’m back home.
It feels really weird. I talked with my parents on Saturday night that their flight is cancelled and the situation started to get worse (both in London and Jakarta) and now on Tuesday, I’m back in my room in Jakarta. Everything was rushed and felt surreal. I gave all of my fresh food supplies to my cousin, left most of my stuff in London (but still had to send back some as the books were too heavy for my baggage), passed on the shoot prep Siddhi gave me to Yve and went to the airport. Layed over in Amsterdam and it was really weird. The airport was really empty and the restaurants were closed–all of them even sold the same damn thing: sandwich. From the same source.
I equipped myself with lots of masks (Yve gave me a N95 mask too), gloves and hand sanitizer. I washed my hands as many times as I could (though I held myself back a bit since my hand got irritation from the alcohol) and thankfully even with two connecting flights, I sat literally alone with no one beside me. I tried to calm myself down a lot in the plane. Malaysia was quite a mess. And I brought my scanner, laptop, polaroid camera, so I had to put all of them out for the x-ray machine and it took a long time. I tried not to touch anything at the airport. I went asleep instantly once I got in the car on the way home.
Today is my third day in Jakarta and it still feels like a dream. I sleep at 6am in the morning due to the jetlag. It feels like I live in a hotel as I have to isolate myself so I can’t go out of my room (as my parents are over 65 and I got two nieces and one nephew hanging around the house) so they basically send anything to my room. I don’t really feel lonely or anything as I used to be in my room a lot without talking with people but it frustrates me that I can’t touch stuff and I can’t see people whom I really miss the most.
At this point, I try to just draw in order to get back to it and continue it in 3D as I’ve been postponing it for a while. Right now I’m trying to organize my thoughts, fix my sleeping schedule and motivate myself to be productive as I have all the time I need now. Fingers crossed.